Today I...

• Woke up
• Smiled
• Got up
• Talked to my boys; Zom+Joe
• Put on psychopathic music;
• Chilled;
• Waited for my uncle;
• Talked;
• Excited bout seeing my baby
• Waited;

• Got a phone call
• Frowned;
• Teared up;
• His dead.
• Txted Chase;
• Said I was sorry
• I hope she understands

Now Ill..

• Go to zomayas;
• Hang out for abit;
• go home.
• go to my family thing
• the morgue
• Come back
• Hopefully..
• Talk to Chase.

I hate this world
Its such a beautiful place;
With beautiful people;
But somewhere..
Something fucked up
Now the world
Full of Corruption
Violence
Rape
Death.

I didnt get to see my babygirl today;
I hate it...
I love her;
I miss her;
I really need her here with me..
She keeps me alive.
Im sorry;
I truely am;
For not being able to go today
I hope you understand.

You mean more to me
than anything else

Honest.

My Life;

My life is average
I need a job
I need money
I got friends
I got best friends
Zomaya
Nathan
Beth
I got enemies
I got haters
I hate people myself

I have a crew
I have boys
then i have MY boyz
theres a diffrence
1 is for hanging out
the other is to hang others

I quit smoking
I quit drinking maybe?
Most likely
I quit weed
..since ages ago

I play my guitar
I suck at it
I sing
I Suck at it too

I listen to my juggalo music
It keeps me happy
I love my face
MCL;

Im a Lo at heart
I love everything pyschopathic
I love ICP
Dark Lotus
Twiztid
You get it

I barely eat no more
Theres never food at home
I have minor problems
Pft; no big deal

My friends have problems
Its life;
My dreams are violent
Just like me?
Im sadistic as fuck
Even called heartless

I love who I am
Even tho im not perfect
I dont think im hot tbh
Im far from it in my eyes

I have a guy after me
He hates my guts
Im not scared
Ill have a pipe to his face soon
Thanks boyz

I laugh too much
I smile not often enuff
I dont get angry easy
I get cut easy; durno why
I hate myself sometimes
but realize theres no point
Im scared of life
its way to big for me

I dont care for most things
Like sex
Yeah its cool
But bleh no need to rush into things right?

I love violence
it makes my blood run
puts a smile on my face
Im weird
I like torture

=\

I watch people die
Its a habit
Im scared of death?
No.
Not even close

Theres a cannibal I know
His a juggalo
I love his face
His rad

Then theres another cannibal I know
His my brother <3
I love his face
He means alot to me

I dunno what Id do without my Fam
they hate me
but they keep me alive

I wanna move out
With my babygirl
Itll be rad
just me and her
..if she wants :D

So sum it up
My life is average;
Average life for an average guy

But one thing is above avergage;


And thats you;
Chantel Elizabeth Brady;

You mean the world to me
Your opinion is of highest value
If your happy then I am
Id do anything to keep that smile on your face
I do love you;
Ever so much
Not even a month and yet
You mean everything
I cant be angry at you
thats the truth
Dont say youve fucked up
Cause you havent
I love who you are
your unique
perfect
beautiful
everything ive dreamed of

You smile
I smile

You love me
&&
I love you

130709

Dear; Motha Fackos

You know what fucks me off?
Drop dead serious straight edge kids; or people who take things ever so seriously;
Like fuck
I smoke, I drink, I used to do weed;

and I got mates who do it too, No im not "trying to be cool" Im who I am;
I WANT TO DO THOSE THINGS;
I love it;
Yeah im quitting most of it but thats another one of MY choices
I really hate people who get in my face about it

Why do you smoke?
Its bad for your lungs?
Why do you drink?
You can still have fun without drinking?
Why do you do weed?
Its bad for you?

Motherfuckers; SHUT UP!

Drop Dead for all I care;
I Smoke not because im addicted because I WANT TO?
why ? i dont fucking know, I just feel like it; Somedays i dont wanna smoke because im like
BLAH! i dont want it!

I drink; Yeah so get off my fucking back for it; lots of people drink; its legal! It tastes awesome; sorry but you cant get Vodka flavoured fucking drinks unless its vodka! And yeah i can have fun without alchie but I also like having fun WITH alchie!

Drugs; yeah some drugs are fucked up but weed; I mean come on; that shit is supposed to be legal! Its not even that bad; depends on how many times you use it; its not addictive; you dont NEED it; If you smoke it once every now and then good on ya; if you smoke it every fucking day; then yeah thats fucked!

I just really hate all these straight edge kids telling me what to do and saying;
im so disappointed in you

well buddy;
Go fuck youself;
Im dissappointed in you for taking life too fucking serious;
YOU GET ONE FUCKING LIFE
USE IT! DRINK SMOKE DO ABIT OF WEED! no serious harm;
but dont be all like OMFG I DONT WANNA DRINK BECAUSE ITS BAD FOR YOU OR I DUN WANNA SMOKE CUZ ITS RLY ADDICTIVE!

you cant die from ONE drink or get addictive from ONE cig;
Dead set; Get offmy back for being me;
Don't like me for me? Fuck off and die in a hole;
Cause tbh; I prefer you fuckers down there

Kryst Is A Good Boy

Not even.

Dead set we all know that.

*yawn*

so here I am writing a random blog about random stuff

oh god rockband is so annoying atm
fuck sake 41 songs to do...IN A ROW D:

oh check this shit out.


[c=57][b]BoBby Azn DrAgOn!! Who NoEz How 2 ConnEct AniMal CroSSiNg To Wii-Fi Net?????[/c][/b] says:
ur cool mate


Motherfucker! I know im cool! dead set im famous.

I was born cool
i was born in antartica
I shit out ice for kryst's sake
Im so cool people come to me on tips on how to be cool

shit!

anyways im bored like hardout


:)

Chase made me write this blog dunno why maybe cause she wants to keep playing pretend and think shes the master....she thinks shes not the bitch

but she is..

chase be a good girl?
yeah right :L

I love this girl.

Dead set she means everything to me
she's always making me smile even just thinking about her ..
shes perfect.
Through my eyes and always will be.
I never want her to leave my side.. <3 style="text-align: center; font-style: italic;">I love you, Chase.



Btw. Lucky Shapes Chip.

Got further than me LOL!

<3

Mmm..

Blargh.
I feel terrible.
So this is my venting out method
I cbf dealing with shit atm
Im terrified of losing her
I dunno why i think I will
I dunno..

Im just.. scared..

And it sucks so bad..

I love her oh so much
she makes me smile..

she keeps me alive. truely.
shes perfect yet i dont feel so perfect
I feel like she deserves better
all I do is make her upset
hmmm..

but..I dont want her to leave my side
god. im clingy...
hmm..

I have issues..
I just want her to trust me
I never ever ever wanna hurt her
its the last thing ill ever do
I dont wanna be like Ahem.
Im far from it
Im better than him..

Or..am I?

*sigh*

Im just..scared I guess
but I shouldnt be
she says she wont leave
and I believe her
yet i fear losing her
but over what or who..
I dont know

Maybe Im the one who will ruin us
with this "fear"
maybe me being so scared will fuck things up
Blah. not like i havent fucked things up before
im used to it

what should I do..

hmm i wonder if she thinks im just like everyone else

cause im far from it
I do love her.
with all my heart.
and for the first time.

ive fallen inlove.

Om Nom Nom <3

I can't stay still,
There's but so much to say,
It can't wait,

I can hear the angels calling for me..

Sometimes I wanted to cry,
When the world turned it's back on me,
Somehow I just knew,
I would find you,
But didn't know I could love you so much,
I didn't know I could love you so much,
But I do..

Sometimes I would stay up all night,
Wishing to god you were by my side,
I didn't know I could love you so much,
I didn't know I could love you so much,

Please don't go,
I would never leave you here,
Your the reason I want to live,
You'll always be safe with me,
Your the reason the world changed for me,

We will always have each other,
In our time of need,
Baby you mean the world..
..to me..

Juggalo<3'zJuggalette

I love you;
You didn't need a key to unlock my heart;
You walked straight through;
And everyday with you gets better and better;
I wouldn't want it any other way;
Though its way to soon to say this;
I just wanted you to know;
You mean everything to me right now;
And I never want to leave your side;
I can't stop thinking about you;
It's a movie playing in my head;
Just me and you;
Those 3 words that leaves your lips;
Gives me hope and keeps me smiling;
ThirteenOhSevenOhNine;
The day you finally became mine <3