Today I...

• Woke up
• Smiled
• Got up
• Talked to my boys; Zom+Joe
• Put on psychopathic music;
• Chilled;
• Waited for my uncle;
• Talked;
• Excited bout seeing my baby
• Waited;

• Got a phone call
• Frowned;
• Teared up;
• His dead.
• Txted Chase;
• Said I was sorry
• I hope she understands

Now Ill..

• Go to zomayas;
• Hang out for abit;
• go home.
• go to my family thing
• the morgue
• Come back
• Hopefully..
• Talk to Chase.

I hate this world
Its such a beautiful place;
With beautiful people;
But somewhere..
Something fucked up
Now the world
Full of Corruption
Violence
Rape
Death.

I didnt get to see my babygirl today;
I hate it...
I love her;
I miss her;
I really need her here with me..
She keeps me alive.
Im sorry;
I truely am;
For not being able to go today
I hope you understand.

You mean more to me
than anything else

Honest.

My Life;

My life is average
I need a job
I need money
I got friends
I got best friends
Zomaya
Nathan
Beth
I got enemies
I got haters
I hate people myself

I have a crew
I have boys
then i have MY boyz
theres a diffrence
1 is for hanging out
the other is to hang others

I quit smoking
I quit drinking maybe?
Most likely
I quit weed
..since ages ago

I play my guitar
I suck at it
I sing
I Suck at it too

I listen to my juggalo music
It keeps me happy
I love my face
MCL;

Im a Lo at heart
I love everything pyschopathic
I love ICP
Dark Lotus
Twiztid
You get it

I barely eat no more
Theres never food at home
I have minor problems
Pft; no big deal

My friends have problems
Its life;
My dreams are violent
Just like me?
Im sadistic as fuck
Even called heartless

I love who I am
Even tho im not perfect
I dont think im hot tbh
Im far from it in my eyes

I have a guy after me
He hates my guts
Im not scared
Ill have a pipe to his face soon
Thanks boyz

I laugh too much
I smile not often enuff
I dont get angry easy
I get cut easy; durno why
I hate myself sometimes
but realize theres no point
Im scared of life
its way to big for me

I dont care for most things
Like sex
Yeah its cool
But bleh no need to rush into things right?

I love violence
it makes my blood run
puts a smile on my face
Im weird
I like torture

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I watch people die
Its a habit
Im scared of death?
No.
Not even close

Theres a cannibal I know
His a juggalo
I love his face
His rad

Then theres another cannibal I know
His my brother <3
I love his face
He means alot to me

I dunno what Id do without my Fam
they hate me
but they keep me alive

I wanna move out
With my babygirl
Itll be rad
just me and her
..if she wants :D

So sum it up
My life is average;
Average life for an average guy

But one thing is above avergage;


And thats you;
Chantel Elizabeth Brady;

You mean the world to me
Your opinion is of highest value
If your happy then I am
Id do anything to keep that smile on your face
I do love you;
Ever so much
Not even a month and yet
You mean everything
I cant be angry at you
thats the truth
Dont say youve fucked up
Cause you havent
I love who you are
your unique
perfect
beautiful
everything ive dreamed of

You smile
I smile

You love me
&&
I love you

130709

Juggalo<3'zJuggalette

I love you;
You didn't need a key to unlock my heart;
You walked straight through;
And everyday with you gets better and better;
I wouldn't want it any other way;
Though its way to soon to say this;
I just wanted you to know;
You mean everything to me right now;
And I never want to leave your side;
I can't stop thinking about you;
It's a movie playing in my head;
Just me and you;
Those 3 words that leaves your lips;
Gives me hope and keeps me smiling;
ThirteenOhSevenOhNine;
The day you finally became mine <3

C-C-CHASE FACE !

CHASE!

zOmg! what a rad kid!
shes so small.
SHE HAS MAD HAIR! ;D
and shes my wife!
Tagged Nathan's Bebo!
cause we're EPIC!

she's a juggalette!
A pretty radcore juggalette too!
we had sex 700,898,001 times yesterday!
in 5 diffrent positions!

Her cousin is an em0!
we laugh at her ;D
*tackles chase*

When we ride!
WHOOP WHOOP!

she likes; BLACK, RED, PINK!
red is cool! just like her!
AND ME!


mainly me... no not really.



i LOVE chase!
because she's a girl!
and IF i liked a boy
ID BE...
Gay or Homosexual
or something...


don't hurt her or ill come after you
with a hatchet ;D

ZOMG! BYE!



Things that sound like CHASE:


Chase.
Face.
Lace.
Trace.
Mace.
Case.
Pace.
Race.
Base.
Taste.


Btw Chase is god!

CHASE
Rhymes with MACE

maces are round!

round is a shape!

shapes are chips!

PEOPLE EAT CHIPS!

people came from monkeys!

monkeys are all over the world!

THE WORLD HAS MANY DIFFRENT
colours! and genders!

GOD IS MANY COLORS AND GENDERS!


CHASE

IS

GOD!

The Life Of Kryst & Gabriel Strange

Once upon a time, when Kryst was a depressed attention seeking sad emo cunt he was out in liverpool with his gf at the time. Like a motherfucking rainbow comming out of God's ass, the two kings met, Kryst and Gabriel Strange, and from that very fucking day they were tighter than a virgins cunt. (L)

Bahh! nah but man, me and Gabs went through a fair bit together. We were always there backing each other up even tho we lived so fucking far. His a clown when he wants to be, serious when he wants to be, but mostly, his retarded...as he was born to be. ;D

Good times lay ahead:

• Cam's party, Motherfucker you just ate the soap that Cam rubs his balls with. Baha
• The entertaining fridge...with a horses head in it (Y)
• Our cardboard box helmets, yeah fuck we cool kids, cept you...cutting the dam hole the wrong way...oh you know what im talking about ;D
• Gabriel's weird retardedness at random times
• Smoking weed ;D never smoked till I met you bahaha you fucked me up
• Staying at your place every now and then ;) epic hangout place
• Oath, new years ^^ with the firecrackers and shit haha and us rolling weed on that dudes car....which I keyed by the way...hahaha
• Gabriel you have a very very very sexy guitar ;)
• Watching that stoners cartoon...with frylock and shakes and meatloaf bahaha HUNGER TEAM AQUA FORCE...........or not....i cant rememeber...
• All that emo bullshit you had to stand when i was in that phase before, pft. Fail.
• Helping each other out with relationship problems, all the time.
• ;D our...talks about sex lmfao "can i see your vagina?" Aw mad pick up line bro.
• Aw shit i dunno what else to say...THATS IT...for now =D oh wait, we got cams party soon more fun =D

And after all that shit, I've changed and stopped being a whiny lil bitch ;D ...most of the times...bahaha PS: i like brokencyde and bmth suck my balls motherfucker =D

"As long as you keep rocking,
I wont quit,
I breathe for you,
I bleed for you,
I'd fucking die for you,
Thats why I call you family "

<3

The Things I Do To Make You Laugh...

So, its like 1:56 right now and previously Me, Beth, Gabriel and Zomaya encountered some "pedos" as one would call it, there are 3 convos, one which is a group and 2 which these two freaks decide to "roleplay" to which I felt like fucking with their heads and making them regret their actions.

Yes, I'm a sick son of a bitch (Y)

Im only gonna post the convos with me cause I thought it was amusing :) in a sick sort of way. With many cheers from the other 3 I decided to step in and play with their heads only to make them realize I'm a dude.

I did this to make my friends laugh ^^, I do alot of things to make people laugh so yee boiii!
(Y) Sick and fucked up is a part of my nature so get used to my weird, sadistic, sick ways. Kthnx.



The first convo with some fucked up guy named "Robert" seriously if your reading this HARRR!!! BAHAHAHA you sick motherfucker I seriously want to lay a fucking hatchet in your head. Get the fuck off habbo and stop being a god dam pedo cunt. (H) This is on MsN. btw he thinks Im a chick ..bahaha. fail for him.

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Robert- oh haha -smiles delightfully- it's okay! haha alrigh! ready ;)?

Kryst--puts on a wizard hat and a robe-

Robert- Sexy ;)

Kryst-I cast Lvl 3 eroticness and turn you into a beautiful girl

Robert- Excuse me? -confused look- :S (IMMA WIZARD BITCH!)

Kryst- lesbain roleplay?

Robert- I'm really a guy seeking for some intimate male and female cyber intercourse :S (Rofl? Intimate?)

Kryst- oh okay thats okay then, straight it is

Robert- -smiles and Winks- Okay, off we go :D (weirdo..)

Kryst-I meditate to regain my mana, before casting Lvl. 8 Cock of the Infinite ;)

Kryst- I spend my mana reserves to cast Mighty Fuck of the Beyondness

Robert- Can we PLEASE PLEASE -begs you- just get to the sex! my dick is hard! (desperate much ?)

Kryst- Don't fuck with me bitch, I'm the mightiest sorcerer of the lands I steal yo soul and cast Lightning Lvl. 1,000,000 Your body explodes into a fine bloody mist, because you are only a Lvl. 2 Druid. Robots are trying to drill my brain but my lightning shield inflicts DOA attack, leaving the robots as flaming piles of metal.

Robert- I'm a what?! (....a Level 2 druid ...-rolls eyes- )

Kryst- King Arthur congratulates me for destroying Dr. Robotnik's evil army of Robot Socialist Republics. The cold war ends. Reagan steals my accomplishments and makes like it was cause of him.You still there baby? I think it's getting hard now.

Robert- my dick is But what are you talking about?! (..did you not read my -puts on wizard hat- line? )

Kryst- u dont roleplay? :S

Robert- I want cyber sex

Kryst- okay well i have a fetish for pirates so everytime you dosomething go HARRRRRRRRRRRRRR ;) massive turn on, okay you start and dont forget to go HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ( readers..goign HAR! doesnt actually turn me on..okay?)

Robert- Alrightey then -confused look whilst pulling underpants down to my ankles-

Kryst-yuforgot to go HARRR BABY

Robert- HARRR BABY! ..:S (HAHAH! ...HARRR BABY!!)

Kryst- ;) okay go on

Robert- -starts to kiss you and then moves down to your chest- HARR!

Kryst- ;)

Robert- -starts to move down lower and then pulls your panties down, starts to lick you out, tongue going deep and deeper. HRRR baby i scream whilst watching a smile come upon your face-

Kryst-who said i smiled :S

Robert- sad face- :( im sorry (LMFAO DOWNER!)

Kryst- i think you need more experienceyour like a lvl 1 mage on wow trying to take on Hobbs (World Of Warcraft Refrence (Y) )

Robert-Please! no! May we start again from when i pulled your panties down! please -begs- :)

Kryst- okay

Robert--Pulls down your panties down wildy with my teeth, throwing them viciousley on the ground then starts to lick you out- HARRR baby i scream -licks more- HARRR!

Kryst- i bend over and harvest raddishs ;) cuz plants turn me on

Robert- -sticks my penis in your rear end (your anus) then i thrust, i keep going and going-

Kryst- wait wait it hurts, owww, OWWWW, ouch

Robert- Oh boy! i'm about to come! (ew...........nasty)

Kryst-MY ANUS IS BLEEDINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, YAY1, MY ANUS! IS BLEEDINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!, WTF DID U DO TO MY ANUS U ANUS RIPPER, :(

Robert--Takes Penis out- Oh i cummed in real life (Oh ew...btw you lasted like 20 seconds...-rolls eyes- freak)

Kryst- yeah i have to say something about ur cyber sex...

Robert- Yes? :)

Kryst- IM A GUY BAHAHAHAH OMFG U JUST JACKED OFF TO A DUDE WTF ARE U GAY? LMFAO BAHAHAHAH U STUPID PEDO UR SO FUCKING DIRTY OMG MAN U RIPPED MY ANUS WHATS WRONG WITH U U SADISTIC SON OF A BITCH BAHAHA SERIOUSLY MAN OMG UR SUCH A FOOL! HARRRRR BAHAHAH ARE U THAT PATHETIC TOGOHARRRR BAHAHAHA UR SO FUCKING STUPIDD OMG GO FUCK UR WIFE

Robert- FUCK (then he blocked me xD )

btw add this fucker if you wanna make fun of him (Y) ladies.man87@hotmail.com



Bahaha anywhos! next guy whats his name ...MICHEAL! bahaha u freak i think u should call that premature ejaculation number (Y)



Micheal- =gets naked nd u see my big dick=

Kryst- -takes off my shirt and exposes my big breasts- (my boobs are quite small D= )

Micheal-licks dem=

Kryst-- i didnt take a shower and i just came back from sport...so its all ewyy and sweaty -

Micheal- mmmmmm sweat nd crust ;) takes ur panties off=(.....O_O FREAK!!!!!!!!)

Kryst--reveals a bump around my crotch :(

Micheal-=licks u out=

Kryst- -eww thats my penis...what are you doing? are you ...bisexual?-

Micheal-=fuks u hard=

Kryst-what are you doing?! HEY! hey! HEY?! stop...STOP! -raises hand-...stop that..no.NO...N..o! S-t-o-p.

Micheal-u got me m cumming (ew.....disgusting brew)

Kryst-omg u lasted like 10 seconds

Micheal-im cumming ova u (-rolls eyes-...u wish......faggot)

Kryst- Thats it! fuck you! imma rape you now! ITS MY TURN BITCH!
-i flop out my 18inch dick and bend you over and fuck u up the ass, my big penis rips open your anus, i yell out OVER 9000!!!!!!!!!!! turn super saiyan and then fly thru the roof fucking u in the ass rly fast, i tear off ur hands and legs and then chopp off your dick you explode as i comeinto your ass and ur dick explodes due to my awesomeness-

Micheal- fuck u u fuckin freak...

Kryst-Im not the one who fucked a guy who i thought was a girl...and jerked off to him...and correct me if im wrong but your the one with the atomic bomb penis -rolls eyes- freak. (Y) good job u just masterbated to a guy

(Y) good job cunt. your offically a faggot. michael.downey1@hotmail.com

Thats about all the fucking around I can deal with tonight.

xO;;

Hey Dad..?

Do you believe in ghosts, demons, angels, satan or any kind of mythical or paranormal being? Well, I believe in all that because I've experienced a few "encounters" as one would call it and because I'm so bored I've decided to write my stories up there's two so YAY! =)

"..the age of 8 is when one is considered
to be mature enough to chose your fate..
And that is the age Satan chooses
to offer you a deal.."

Apparently at the age of 8 is when "God" thinks you are old enough to make your own decisions and this is the age where Satan decides to come to you because you are so gullible at this age. This is my story about what happened when I was 8, I used to live in Cabramatta in one of them townhouses. Well one night I was sleeping in bed and had a terrible nightmare to which I can't remember, all I know is I ran into my mum's bed and slept there. When I woke up I saw something at the end of my bed. I peeked over the covers and I noticed it was the back of someones head, it had short black wild hair. As I looked at it I got an uneasy feeling...at the end of my mum's bed there was a wardrobe with a mirror on it, this is the first time I've noticed. I looked at the mirror and I saw his face. He looked at me, his eyes stayed dead still, not a single ounce of emotion in his face. Naturally I got scared and hid under the blankets tugging on my mum's shirt, she woke up and asked "What's wrong?" I told her there was a man at the end of the bed, She took a look and saw no one there. I looked over the covers again and he was gone..to this very day I remember it clearly, I remember his face and his face. Who was it? I don't know..
But since that day I've become quite interested in demons and devils and other fairytale creatures like every other kid just...more on the grotesque side.


"Hey Dad?..Dad?..Whatever"


Last year I went to Cambodia for some family holiday thing which by the way...sucked. Anyways what happened at one of the hotels has stayed with me for quite awhile and I thought I feel like writing about it so YAY! Well, I was staying at one of the hotels in the country side, so you'd expect a not so comfy place, I didn't care. Me and my dad booked in one room and my mum and my lil sister and lil brother got another because they only had 2 beds. My room was directly opposite to my mums just so it would be easier to get things from her bag if I needed it. One night my mum and dad took my lil sis and bro out to each and stuff and being me I didn't want to go as usual, I hated being there so I really couldn't be fucked with anything they did. I was in the room watching tv and txting a friend of mine all night, I got bored of watching the tele so I layed in bed and kept txting my friend. I was in bed with my back facing the door and the lights all turned off. After an hour or so, I heard the doorknob rattle and I heard a key slide in, It was my dad. "Hey Dad?..Dad?...Whatever" I said getting no response from him, I assumed he had a good night cause he went straight to bed. During that night as I kept txting my mate, I heard him get up several times, open the fridge and open a can or go to the bathroom. Taking no noticed I sent a sms to my mate saying "fuck my dads like up all night...he cant go sleep, its so fucking annoying". Eventually I fell asleep after talking to my mate for quite a fair bit.

I woke up and looked around my room and noticed my dad wasn't in bed, I guessed he must of woken up early and went down to a restuarant and got something to eat for breakfast. I decided to go get something to eat also so I took a shower and got dressed and went into my mums hotel room. As I walked in I saw my dad sleeping heavily on one of the beds and my lil sis and bro sleeping on another. "Uh...what the fucks he doing here? Jeez if he wanted to sleep more he could've stayed in our room", my mum looked at me and replied "Yeah, he drank heaps last night and passed out here". "What..? No he wasn't he was sleeping in our room", my mum looked at me weird, "No. He was sleeping here all night I had to keep an eye incase he vommited plus the keys to the room is ontop of your tv". Eyes wide I ran into my hotel room and checked the ontop of the tv, shes right, the keys were there. I opened my fridge and noticed all the cans were open but they were all full. Woah what the fuck I thought. I walked into the bathroom and noticed there was no light bulbs...so all that time Ive seen the bathroom light go on and off but there was no lightbulb. Freaked out I went to my mum and told her what happened, she was suprised and replied "Funny, for some weird reason I could smell blood all night". A few hours later as we were walking down to grab food my mum had a nice chat with the hotel owner.

Apparently,

This hotel was used as a prison for the Khmer Rogue and alot of people have died here.

The Things That Make Life Grey

I hate this. Today I just found out two of my mates passed away..and what from? some fucking drunk driver..fuck. Sarah and Bryan are two of my closest mates .. and I know them so well I could write a whole book for them without even having to think.. They're the most trusted friends I've got and they've always been there for me..and to think I won't have them here no more...just sucks so much.. If there is a God, Your fucked. I can't see how you can take someones life away when they havent even done shit wrong...your as bad as a serial killer..

So this morning I got dropped off to the hospital to find out, Sarah passed away...I dunno who cried more..Me or Bryan, Bryan being her bf was obviously more devastated...He sat there in the car watching his gf die..fuckk thats just...messed up man, just to make matters worst the moment I got home Bryan's sister called telling me he too passed away... Karma...God...whatever you want to believe in, its messed up and twisted and fucks you over... If there is a heaven, when I die, I intend to tear it apart and drag it down to hell..Lets see your God now.

R.I.P
Sarah Neil
&&
Bryan Scott Wiltlin

Triggered Memories

Wow. How longs it been?...I've lost track of time, I've lost track of who I am, I've lost track of you... Shit..I'm sitting here listening to songs and all I can think about is you.. It's been so long but I miss you so much.. 6 months and a few more isn't easy to forget, have you? I really don't care what others say about me and what they think about me at the moment but I do miss you and still care and love you.. It wasn't doing stuff with you that I miss most.. It was being with you and having you there besides me.. I know you've got someone else now and I'm heaps glad for you.. I justg hope things work out and don't fall and crumble like we did. Not like us..

xO;;

The Life Of Kryst And Johnny Brew

Fucking oath man. I recently talked to one of my mates who I've had a long history with, we've shared the best of the best days I've ever had in my whole life haha oath lil boys we were man. Can't believe how long it's been, Johnny and me were like tight as tight can be..His my brother and always will be aye. Shit remember all the trouble we rocked up? and all the bullshit stories we pulled out of our asses HAHAHA. Fuckkkk we were young and so retarded but aye like you said thats how we roll. I miss those days but life's new and fresh at the moment, we need to hang out again. Oh brew remember all these:

- You comming over my house every single day bro, If not it was me going to your house haha
- Acting like hardcunts then inviting 2 random kids to a fight
- Playing Ps1\Ps2 on my failed shit tv upstairs, the only colour it had was Purple..haha like wtf
- Our first time making Migoreng..I didn't know it was DRY, I kept it in the water and poured all the shit into it and we were like WTF taste like shit man !
- V and Tony living next door
- Saying Hey V kiss Tony on the cheek then she cried LOL wtf brew !
- Beating Tony, smacked him down with our smackdown moves !
- Johnny clicking it at those 2 dumb asians and throwing rocks at them
- My lil sis dropping her bowl of noodles and we cracked up
- SPIDERMAN HAS AIDS! Rofl !
- Us pretending to be wrestlers, we had wrestling names and shit and even finishers XD sad
- Throwing rocks at cars then running away when the cars stopped
- Filling up one of our neighbours garbage bins with water and then walking off like nothing
- Me accidently throwing a massive log at this lil girl LOL
- My uncle T breaking a wooden pole in my backyard with a punch...tuff kient

Oh bro! fuck that was the days haha and fuck we talked trash like no 2moro, all we did was pull out bullshit from our mouths.. Oath, memories are fucking sweet and neverending.

Eshayz, Hang out soon lil brother;;